I am so exhausted, tired all the time. I sleep the normal amount of hours at night.
I work a normal job of 27 hours a week, which I have had to cut down to 17 hours in the hopes I can carry on working instead of long term sickness due to this debilitating exhaustion.
I don’t go out partying/socialising or spend excessive lengths of time on the Internet.
I have 2 children who are now old enough to help out around the home and they do. I only play taxi driver a couple of times a week for them, barring the school run of course.
I have a wonderful boyfriend who has helped out so much around the home with everyday chores, so I can rest up and be well.
But for eight weeks now I have struggled to stay awake and be functional! When I do feel well rested, my joints and muscles ache like I’ve walked/ran a marathon. I’m not unfit, last year during most weekends I would walk/hike between 3 & 10 miles doing circulars, Whatever took my fancy! Now I’m being driven by smif247 to cache & dashes!
The exhaustion is causing me to struggle walking up a regular set of stairs at home, by the time I get to the top I’m crawling, I cannot do that in work, the children would all laugh at me!
And so I push on, forcing myself to stay awake to complete a full days work in school. Then I come home and force myself to be functional around my children and boyfriend.
I just want to be normal and lead a normal life! This is my first relapse in more than 10 years and it’s worse than before.
The exhaustion gets in the way of home life, work life, geocaching life & social life! Resulting with me feeling like I’m taking liberties. Being a burden and not being fun to be around. I hate this feeling and I try to not let it get to me! But right now it’s getting the better of me.
I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and currently there is nothing I can do about it!
But rest and do virtually nothing!
Please can I have my life back now? I don’t deserve this!